DnD Spells Dietary Disaster

05/14/2011

Hot for Con Challenge: 

Days until Con : 111

Current Weight (recorded every morning) : 224.0 

Current BMI : 33.08

Work Out: Another Recovery Day...

Foods devoured today:

Special K Cereal : 280 Calories

Chicken Fajitas : 700 Calories

Medium three cheese papa johns pizza : 1680 calories

DnD snacks: 500 calories

Total: 3160 calories (omg...)

I did not eat well today, not by a long shot. It may be my first day while within Hot for Con that I completely did not pay attention to what I ate until it was all over with. I felt it to. It's like smoking (which I admit I've had a few cigarettes), where after you've been doing so well for awhile and then you break you feel totally ashamed. It was DnD day, where my friends and I attempt to the kill the crap out of things with math, and these days are typically filled with average to kind of bad food. Today however I completely missed the boat, by first going to mexican restaurant and getting not so awesome for you foods, forgetting that it was DnD day, and then pizza was ordered. l completely forgot for an entire day that I was suppose to be getting into the best shape/health of my life, and instead I pigged out and sat around rolling dice. That's two days in a row of no exercise, and three days in a week time of no exercise and now adding junk into my system. 

Usually I'd say this isn't my first rodeo, but since starting the official Hot for Con countdown I've been a rock when it comes to diet and fitness. So I feel bad, real bad. But being healthy doesn't mean being a robot and denying yourself occasional pleasures. The difference between a diet and having a healthy lifestyle is that diets are a short term solution, and the latter is a new way of life. So I feel bad, but I know in my heart that healthy people will sometimes have a day every few weeks where they eat extremely bad food in higher portions than necessary. Or a week out the month where they're just not as physical. Some physicians say it's good because it shocks your metabolism and makes it work harder. For now I'm not happy it happened and especially this deep within Hot for Con.

I will venture to limit this behavior.

Tomorrow the scale will be unkind, and it will break my heart, as it's my weigh in for my weekly stats. I think that it's important to not get discouraged, and to just continue business as usual, as though this day never happened. If I weigh the same as last week I know that there are other factors involved. Hell. This morning I was at 224, that's 3 pounds down from last week, and that's a huge improvement. So we will see, I weighed myself just now and furious that my body reacted with almost a 5 pound increase because of this junk today. That's crazy, how is it possible? The human body is a complex machine and everyone has a manual that reads slightly different concerning its' use and maintenance.

I feel myself slipping sometimes, and though I'm not spiraling out of control, it's frustrating that one or two bad days can wipe out an entire week of good. It doesn't seem fair. I smoked some last week, and it's just that much easier to smoke again, and it's so hard to just stop on a dime again. Exercising seems tedious recently, and it's hard to to find healthy foods that fill me up.

But I'll power through this, I'll get it all worked out, and inch by inch life will be a cinch. At least that's what the cheesy comercial in my head is repeating.